the what ifs....

last nite was a lonely nite for me...
so what i did was to bloghop & stalk fb profiles...
it was great to read bout happy life of your frens n families...

i know it's unhealthy but sometimes i can't help but to wonder... what ifs...
heh... doesnt mean i'm not happy wif my current life...
cume kekdg suke je berangan2 pasal "kalau" ni... hehehe saje mereka2 cite ala2 novel
so dont get me wrong... i know Allah knows best... i'm grateful wif all that has happened in my life
some of my popular "what ifs"

• what if i didn't agree to go to boarding school in form 4?
• what if i didn't stop taking tennis class when i was in standard 1 jus bcos i want to take art class?
• what if i learn to play musical instruments since i was 5?
• what if i did go to the gymrama camp  for sukma '98 when i was in standard 4?
• what if i didn't go to UTP?
• what if i choose my passion on arts n architecture OVER petronas scholarship?
• what if i keep on staying in rship with any other men i've been with? this thoughts akan disusuli wif all dramas of life. ahahha. none of it got happy endings in my thoughts
• what if i pursue my many crushes??? it was harmless notty thoughts... hehe
• what if i didn't agree to come and work in kuantan?

banyak lg what ifs... ehehheeh
but they are jus what ifs thoughts... hehe
i would never give up my current life wif my fabulous family over any of the what ifs! heheh
especially not my hubby. :P

bekam = pain = good for health = pain (notice d double pain!)

yesterday, i was feeling bored. hubby was working the day-shift so i was left alone for d wiken.
so... i went to town, got my self a facial, n tetibe trase nk wat bekam~
dah ramai actually recommended the so called natural pain relief treatment (dat's wut they called it in the brochure).
i was nervous but kinda looking forward to the results n its miracle.
so first was the consultation, the therapist would ask what's ur health problems & areas of usual pain.
mine is migrain and back and shoulder pain.
so she suggested a few spots for the bekam.
i was all in agreement and left everything to her judgement.

so the treatment begins...
first spot was at the center of my neck at the back. it was ok~~ the pain was bearable n i was embracing it thinking that my head is gonna feel so much lighter after this.
then starts the spots at my back. ouch!!! sgtla sakit!!
huhuhuhu. i actually counted the no of needle jabs i got for each spot... cos it was so painful n i jus needed to distract my mind from the pain.
so for the larger spots at my back, i got around 70-80 jabs. for the smaller spots around my neck n forehead, i got around 30-40 jabs.
the neck is the least painful.
the forehead was kinda painful but bearable sbb 30-40 jabs je
but for the back, there were times when i had to stop the therapist for a minute to take my breath n ease the pain. sakit~~~~~ at first it felt like the needle jabs taken on ur finger during basic blood test for sugar level. but imagine 70-80 times the needles punctured thru ur skin. n the needles were even thicker than the one used for normal blood test.
but during the sucking period, it was not as painful. boleh rase die suck ur blood.
n my toxic was like~~~~ masyaAllah~banyaknyee~~ huhuhu.
even the therapist pon ckp mcm ni br puas ati buat sbb kuar banyak.
huhuhuhu.
the toxic blood was dark red and clumpy.

after the bekam session, they would put a herbal oil to close the wounds and makes the healing process faster. mase die letak minyak ni.... akan rase pedih sket. huhu.

so after my experience...
kalau org tanye if i recommend it or not
yes, it is good for health n all s it got rid of the toxic in ur blood stream.
but.... be brave! and kalau u rs amik darah utk blood test tu sakit....
u might not wanna opt for it. :P

bila ramadhan kunjung tiba...

rasa macam xnak g ofis sebulan lamanya~
eyh tambah lg sebulan utk raya plak~
jadi rase cam xnak keje 2 bln~ :P

mata kuyu~
perut kruk2~
bdan pon layu2~

hatiku tidak di tempat kerjaku~!
cepatla 4.30pm... nak balikkkkkkkk