panic attack

i'm so not good at managing unplanned situations... huhuhuh
rasa cam nak panic je n cpt glabah...

i'm in my 28weeks... n lately been having panic attacks on my preparation for motherhood. hahah
suddenly the few things left in the checklist seems sooooo important

things concerning me now:

1. cukup ke baju baby yg dah dibeli - kekdg rs dah byk kekdg rs hishhh ckp ke ni
2. bile nak start basuh baju2 baby & botol2 susu die
3. rumah mama tgh reno and most prolly will only complete by end of May. masa tu i will already reach 38weeks... bile boleh start angkut barang2 masa pantang blk kl... sempat ke? huhu
4. babysitter for baby belum confirm
5. tukang urut & persiapan bepantang x booking n prepare ape2 lagi
6. we gonna get our new house key next week... would be soooooo2 much easier utk start renovating and preparing d house asap so that by the time abes pantang boleh terus pindah... so baby nursery buat terus kat rumah baru je. tp sempat ke nak siapkan rumah tu before i teberanak~~~ huhuhuhuh. need to expedite. kalau rumah baru x smpat disiapkan... i will need to setup baby's corner in our current house tp byk furniture nk kena rearrange utk memuatkan baby cot in our small master bedroom... so penat die akan sama je mcm nk pindah~ hukhuk.
7. wlopon semua barang almost bought... tp semua teperuk dlm bilik blakang lg.. so masih belum terasa spt dah ready to deliver anytime soon
8. roughly i have 10 more weeks to fully prepare for everyting = 11 more wikens. out of 11 wikens... 5 wikens have been booked for family events and komitmen2 lain. so i'm left wif 6 wikens ONLY!!! huhu. and out of the 6 wikens... akan ade wiken2 yg i will need to travel to kl for frequent antenatal checkups wif my gynae...
9. i dn't think i'll get the chance to attend the much needed antenatal classes... wlopon ade org kate x membantu sgt pon... nnt lupe je... i think... in a way... it might help to boost my confidence to face labor n motherhood. at least adela sikit ilmu before the time comes. ilmu thru reading n bloghopping sgt tidak membantu menaikkan rasa konfiden malah rs cam makin neves jerk... hukhuk
10. i guess i'll have to forego my BABYMOON~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaa... sgt takut nak apply cuti time weekdays jus utk bejln2 sbb akan maternty leave slame 2bln nnt kan. n kalau g time wiken... which is already sgt limited... rasa cam xpelah... better spend d wiken getting us ready n settling everything rather than g holiday~
11. lastly i'm jus worried about taking d 2 months maternity leave... wlopon sgt look forward to being away from office... tp sgt risau memikirkan keja2 yg bakal ditinggalkan... all d initiatives n projects dat im supposed to do dis yr... d long leave will definitely affect my work plans... so sgt merisaukan... huhu

owh telupa... dulu konon semangat nk cari nama baby...
n now suddenly im stuck wif no names!! hahahahaha. poyos sungguh... so let's see what name pop up nnt lah~ :P

baby ddk bebaik dlm perut k... kalau boleh kuar elok2 minggu ke-40 supaya mommy sempat prepare kan d best for u k... love u...